December 2009
“Is trying worth nothing when chance defines an end? Is ambition all we’ll...”
Never would have thought I’d get myself here
Wait this out just to see how this turns out.
I just realized how much I want to get rid of my past. I’ve always hated looking back on the past way back when. I’d be lying if I said I was content with everything in my life now but I can honestly say that I love a lot of people in my life.
Looking back a year so many things were different, so many people, so many thoughts running through my mind. But that’s all changed now....
As said by Tito..
“family isn’t a blood related thing. Family is what it’s in the heart.”
This really hit me hard when I read it. When you look to your family and see how fucked up things can be with them the only thing close to family that comes to mind is your friends. I can relate to this more then anyone knows I think.
and it feels so good not to care for once in my life.
I just spent 2 days straight playing assassin’s creed 2 and beat it. Chilled with some homies and such with not a care in the world. I wish this break would last longer.
WAH WEE WOO WACKA WA WA
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Look alive now, We don’t want you rolling over dead.
I love myself for always thinking of the bad things. I’m trying to live a stress free life but the littlest things bother me. I’m going to stop caring all in all.
Let’s see where that gets me.
I lied about the last post, that was the Christmas start I had in mind. the end was just terrible. To think I used to look up to my family thinking they were one of a kind. I was right in a way. They are one of kind for being so god damn selfish. I’m not trying to sound spoiled or anything but even the thought of gift like something small would have been nice. But no, all I get is a dirty...
It’s 3:30 in the morning, Christmas day, just got off the xbox after kicking some ass.
Going to bed with my presents all around me ahhh<3
This is definitely the Christmas I had in mind
One of these days I’m going to just go away to California or Europe or somewhere and not tell anyone. I wouldn’t want it to be looked down upon from my friends and family. I wouldn’t want it to be seen as being an asshole.
I’d just like it to get away, leave the place where I’ve always been, Experience a different enviroment. I think we all could use a little...
I’m a dull person. what can i say.
ryon:
Those who do right, get what they deserve.
Those who do wrong, get what they deserve.
:)
I die a little inside whenever that happens.
You have one life, so live it and do what you want.
Cliche indeed.
You make me sick.
I’d love it if just once, I wasn’t compared to someone else.
I’m not one to argue or discuss complicated things.
I’m one to live my life smoothly without any stress.
Smooth sailings.
Self-Control
I hope things go downhill for you, that way I can laugh.
Let go of the things that waste your time and energy.
Just wanna throw out there
I’m done trying so hard to be nice to new people :D
Reality kicks in
The truth makes me stronger
i named this cd for alex:
coleftw:
“don’t worry everybody, alex got home safely.”
it’s the sequel to the much loved cd “alex needs to get home. seriously.”
<3
words can not describe how much i love you hahah
This is stupid, everyone shut up.
Grow up and stop causing problems out of useless things.
Watch your actions, keep your shit to yourself.
Someone tell me how to get through this life
Weak or Strong
Fair or unfair
Lucky or not
It’s all gonna be the same in the end.
You make me sick to my stomach. Ignorant people, you should all look at yourselves and realize how much of a waste of air you all are.
I also don’t see the point of compulsive liars. Why waste your time and everyone elses?
If it’s not one thing, its always the other.
In some other world, I’d like to run away for a long time and come back and see what all of you have done without me. See how things would be, to me that d be pretty interesting.
Not trying to sound cocky or whatever.
Put it all on the line and for a minute the earth will stand still.
For once in my life I wish I could have the feeling that someone else needed
me
coleftw:
alextheazian2:
I really hope karma does it’s trick. It’d make my life a lot better.
i don’t know man, i hear she’s a bitch
I hope that bitch is understanding then
I really hope karma does it’s trick. It’d make my life a lot better.
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time, when I used to look foward to Fridays, when I used to light up with joy seeing everyone, back when everyone would light up with joy to see each other.
I miss the old times so much more then ever to be honest. I’d be lying if I said I enjoy school now. I’ve made great new friends but that’s put me far away from the old ones. Some people...
In a world like this, what gives you the encouragement to live a happy life?
When your friends and family aren’t enough to you, what do you look too?
What do you have to make you light up?
For one thing, it sure isn’t that anymore.
I’m sorry for not being there. I’m sorry that I disappoint greatly. I really am. I don’t know how else to say this to make you believe it but I really am.
I love it when you lose yourself, it makes it easy to forget you. Pretend this was never yours.
So much doubt.
People like to ask me about my past.
Well fuck the past is what I say.
coleftw:
alextheazian2:
coleftw:
alextheazian2:
I’m going to cry because of Matthew Aguerre
i’ll beat him up and then you and i can go get some ice cream champ
Tears of Joy that is Cole Alex Todd
well we can still go through with my plan
I could use some ice cream. hahaha
