November 2009
What happening to staying true and being there for people?
What happened to the time when people actually cared?
What happpened to the past?
What happened to when kids stopped creating problems and labeling people?
Everything seems so much harder to get through. No matter what it is.
I feel like I’m stuck, running and getting no where.
It’s either I didn’t do good enough or...
October 2009
The many reasons
That keep me down
hey alex,
coleftw:
remember the “ride a mule to reach the horse” thing?
well, fuck mules
thats what i’ve been saying lol
I feel so weak lately. It makes me feel pathetic how I care so much about how people look at me. I’ve always kept the “Don’t give a shit what you think” mentality in mind but all and all it still gets to me.
On a brighter note, I feel like I’m accomplishing my work and actually doing good. I’ve made new friends and kept the ones that matter.
As cheesy as it...
How do you get by when everything seems hard?
How do you manage when you have a moment and relief and it’s taken away in an instance?
How do you live like this?
Hard Times
I can honestly say at this point that I won’t be the same person in the future. All this stress is taking over me and I just can’t deal with it. I’m already losing people I care about and falling behind in school.
Let’s see how long this will last
I’m done feeling sorry for the pathetic shit. This is real life and I’m going to stop pretending like it’s not that big of a deal.
Let's give it up
for the disappointments and mislead thoughts.
Let’s carry on with what we still got, and always remember that you’re the best you can be.
Stay True. Stay Positive.
Possibly the two most important things to keep in mind.
<3
At least I think so.
“you are my light
you broke the iron bars before me
you made a path and now im...”
So many questions that none of us know the answers to.
Today
I talked with my friends who I haven’t seen in forever. It feels good to know that nothing has changed that much and we’re still as good as friends.
I can’t lie, I miss the days when I’d complain to them how much my middle school sucked and now I don’t even have the chance to ask what’s new.
I lost this fight a long time ago.
Gotta love the shitty friends you have out there.
Tired of being let down
Tired of not being good enough
Tired of being lied too
Tired of treated like shit.
Why do I even waste my time on you?
Lying Two Faced Hypocrite.
On a brighter note, beef jerky is really good and so in orange fanta :D
It's nights like these
That really show me how slow I’m
Progressing and how far back I am.
They Win a lot, I lose a lot
They Win a little, I still lose a lot.
They Win nothing, I still lose something.
It’s a never ending cycle.
Why don’t we all follow our dreams?
Who really knows.
Two Faced From The Start.
My mind is punctured, with every thought seeping through the holes.
Every thing that was once I, are now them.
Everything that was once them, now turned raw.
Was this how it was meant to be?
Was this how you pictured it?
Well my mind still spills and My thought’s now alive.
We Are Nothing More Then Pawns Competing With One...
You
have showed me what it’s like to have a good friend.
You have been there for me close to day one.
You have stuck with me through all the changes I’ve gone through.
You have kept my spirits high through out everything.
You’ve helped me become the person I am today.
Thank you so much, I hope this friendship last forever.
Screwing up
has never been more enjoyable.
Life is always full of disappointments. Whether we let it choose to bring us down is the real question. Will we let something small bring us down while we’re on the verge of accomplishing something big? Today I realized that the little things in my life that bother me so much aren’t that big of a deal. Though I don’t know what I’m striving to accomplish here I know...
I'm watching the sails disappear underwater.
I’ve lost my respect for a large amount of people and I feel closer to a lot of people.The past few weeks have showed me a lot and I’ve noticed the littlest things about people. I’m always changing and I’m not sure if it’s for the better or for the worse.
People suck
hahah.
HEY
It’s Matthews birthday today :D
What is this world that we live in made of?
I realize now in this time, I will never be the person everyone wants me to be. I won’t be the person my parents want me to be, I won’t be the person my friends want me to be. At this exact moment I am choosing to become the person I want to become. I know that it’s hard for me to stand by a statement but I’m going to try and remember this throughout everything I go...
“Only after disaster can we be resurrected.”
IB doesn't create stress, you do.
The most fucking bullshit I’ve ever heard. As stubborn as that was, I could fucking care less.
What I'd give
To be sitting on the beach with the cool breeze and the sun setting down.
“You’re stuck in the dream with next to nothing
I’m all alone and nothings what...”
I’m tired of how things are. I’m done with trying to impress everyone. It’s sad how I can’t even make myself happy yet I try so hard to make everyone else happy.
New Mentality and Outlook on life
Let’s see how it works out
Taking initiative to get the things you want. My friend said this to me the other day and it really does mean something to me. I need to put more effort into what I want.
I think it's funny how
all I’ve been listening too lately is Mayday Parade, Paramore, Lydia, and blessthefall. Odd combination I would say.
I'm done
with broken promises.
I've always asked myself
Where will I be 5 years from now? 1 year is a lot of time, let alone 5? What will I be, Where will I be, What will I be doing?
